this is real, this is me.

I realised July & August will be a super busy months pack with events + exams.
))))))))):
Im feeling the stress now man. Everything is like so pack. =.="
Oh, I just realise that the CARE event will clash with my mentoring.
And, this sat photography camp will clash with my mentoring too.
*Shucks*
Why did I join so many ccas in the first place??
LOL.
I feel like quitting photography & mentoring, and just concentrate on IG events.
If not, I will die man with so many commitments. Haha!
I don't want to keep sacrificing other ccas for this & that.
I don't like making a choice. To choose is to lose.
SIGH.
In any case, I definately won't give up on IG.
Hee`s. I will see how things goes bahx.

I think, I must learn how to take stress.
This is my purpose for joining IG right??
And be more like him.

The scar on ur head is like the scar you left in my heart, it will nv go away.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:53 am

Alright, second post of the day.
Econs project meeting at Eunice's house was okay.
I just signed up for a IG event.
Yep. Its a CARE event whereby IG members will take care of less fortunate kids & bring them to changi airport.
Sounds kinda fun. :P

I've got a series of events coming up...

5th July --> Photography Camp
14th July--> First IG meeting
16th July--> Compulsory training for the IG CARE event
19th July--> Actual day for the IG CARE event
21st July--> Csa project + Pom project dateline + ______)=

Tired.
IMY. )=

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:43 pm

Me, Trivia & Che Yee GFS!!! :DDDD

GFS FOREVER :DDDDDDD

Picture drawn by my mentee,Gunna. (((:

Yesterday was a great day. (:
Went for mentoring session at tccc in the afternoon.
I got a new mentee, Gunna. (:
He is a smart boy. Haha!
He wanted to do science practise paper & my mentor partner, Yvonne, and I were quite worried. I returned all my pri school science knowledge to my teacher alr. *Laughs*
Hahas. Some of the questions I didnt even know how to do. :P
Omg, so pai seh. Hahas. :o
Maths is still better. ((:

After that was games time!
We played an IQ board game called, Hopper.
Helena & I got excited with the game while teaching the mentees and so, the both of us went to take a set of the game to play as well. :D
It was fun man, although alot of brain cells were killed during the expert level. Haha!

Yeah, after the mentoring ended, we bus-ed to tampines mall to meet Trivia gf! (:
It was a very last minute meet up. Hahas!
We only decided around half an hour before the mentoring thing ended.
We went around to look for the photo frame that Helena wanted.
After that, Helena headed home while Cy, me & Trivia went LJS for dinner.
We went to shop around after dinner & then, decided to head to starbucks for a chit chat session before heading home. ((((:
It was a nice catch up session with them.
Too bad joey & eliz gfs were not there. ):
I told them that I miss the days where we did the geo project.
We went to several places to find cheap cactus.
Kovan was our usual place to go at that time.
It was tiring as we have to travel all the way to Kovan, but it was fun. (:
I rmb we spent our national day at Elizabeth's house doing the cactus until super late at night.
Haha! It was a vey meaningful & special national day. :)
I miss the days. It is so memorable. (((:
Hee`s.

Yeap, and now Im damn tired.
Deprived of sleep these few days man. ):
This morning, I was awaken by wei guang's message at 6am.
HAH! And I couldnt go back to sleep after that. Zzzzz.
Sms-ing with him till 8 plus & woke up after that.
All in all, i didnt sleep after 6am.
Wah, so tired now. Hahas.
Anyway, cheer up wei guang. (:
Ltr still got econs project meeting.
Oh my tian.
Hah!

Lastly, thanks all my darling friends for the concern.
Hahas and to hui ling, Im so touched by ur message.
THANKS. :D
Yeah, FRIENDS FOREVER.

Love is really a troublesome issue.
I wish I can forget.
This will be my top most wish in my wish list.
Sigh.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:50 am

Again, it was another disappointment. ):
I know I shouldnt feel it this way, he is just a friend.
Isn't it the case?? I seriously don know...
I know I shouldn't deceive myself any more.
No matter how much i lie to myself, the facts remain the same.
Maybe..what I need now is not time..cos time don't heal my wounds.

Sigh. Tell me what I should do?

Ok, on a happier note, Im happy to have great friends around me. :DD
Yeap, I love my poly clique! ((:
Hee`s. You girls always make my day. (:
I realised we didn't go out for a shopping session tgt before. ):
I seriously need my retail therepy to keep me going on.
Sooooo, lets find one day go out shopping kk??? (:
Haha!

I need a beach.
I want to write all my hurts in the sand, so that winds of forgiveness can erase it away.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:10 am

Alright, back from school.
Today, we didnt get back the cs1 essay result. (:
*PHEW* Haha! I hope it will never be return to us.
Lol.

And, I just realised that Aaron chose the same cds as me! );
ZOMG!
I should not have said my choices in the first place.
BOOHOO.

Mentoring session again tmr. ><
Sun will be another project day. -.-
Im looking forward to tmr. ((:

I hope...it will not be another disappoinment.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

6:51 pm

Today school was okay.
The amount of projects are piling up. =x
Im so stress up with the projects dateline coming nearer & nearer to us, and all the upcoming tests.
ARGH.
POM project + csa web design project = 21 JULY DATELINE. )))):
And, I still haven get my blazer yet. zomg.

WAN JUN IS STRESS! =x

COMM SKILLS ESSAY RESULT TMR! )))))):
* Pray that I pass*

Oh, to my DEAR FRIENDS( hui ling, wee teng) , REGARDING THE 'HIM', ITS REALLY OKAY YA. (((:
IM FINE & I DON MIND YA. Don't worry. (:

Hahas. My friends are so cute. ((:

I can't bear to let go, but i know i can't turn back time.
So, give up is the only choice I can make.
Be happy, & I will be happy too. (:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

7:33 pm

Today school was fine. (:
My friends were so funny. Haha!
They went to look at my blog in school & since then, the 'topic' begans.
They all know about him alr. =x
So scary! Wee Teng!!!!! >< color="#ff6600">The conversation about him made me a lil sad.
But, its alright la. I must get used to it.
Hahas.

Oh, when i was about to go home, wei guang made me so pai seh.
ZOMG.
I will rmb it man. Hahas!
:D

And, there is a class outing next mon before school. Whoohoo.
MOVIESSS! :D

I miss you.
They say, we are compatible.
Are we??

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:37 pm

Alright, school officially starts.
Yesterday was a long day in school.
Went to school early morning at 8 am to submit csa excel project.
After which, chiw foong, Eunice & I went to do our econs project.
Had lunch at biz park. Western food! :D
After that, we were wondering where to go as our lesson only starts at 4pm. -.-
Haha! In the end, we decided to go out of school to buy bubble tea. (:
We then bus-ed to TM to shop for stuffs.
It was a fruitful trip for both me & chiw foong. (:
Hee`s. Headed back to school at around 3pm.
Had financial accounting tutorial.
We got back our test result.
I got an A.
But still, it was quite disappointing for me.
I was expecting higher marks. ):
Sigh. Its okay. At least, I didnt let you down...

Ltr POM tutorial at 4pm again. -.-
I hate mon & tues lessons. LOL.
I will be getting back pom test result ltr.
* nervous + scared+ confirm die*
I wonder how Im going to die ltr.
Maybe can consider drinking poison huh?? Or kill myself??
HAHA!
Argh. Super scared now. ):
Please god, let me pass, let me do well.
I cant afford to suffer any more setbacks in life.
Torn apart.

My biggest mistake/regret in life. ):
Junior College.
If only I can turn back time...
My choice woudn't be the same.
*tears* I miss him.

Edited/

POM IS A GREAT DISAPPOINTMENT. )))))):
POM result = Sadded Wan Jun.

LOL. I got back pom result.
I pass pom, but again, its not up to my expectations.
Its saddening. )):
My friends all did very well. Congrats to them (:

I was super depressed just now.
Perhaps, I shouldn't worry too much.
Its just the very first test anyway.
Yeah. :)

My mood turns for the better now.
I am smiling. (:
A message from a special friend changed my mood. (:
Hee`s.
Yeap, a special friend.
I must remind myself that he is a special friend of mine, nothing else. (:
Haha!
Thanks for cheering me up. (:

It works so magically. (((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:04 am

Me & BROTHER. ((:

SCHOOL STARTS TMR! )):
Mugging, rushing for classes, projects meetings, IG meetings, presentations.
And not to forget STRESS.
I can see all of them coming my way soon. BOOHOO.

Last time, i used to like going back to school after holidays.
Now, the reason for me to like is not there anymore. ):
Sigh. I miss sec school days badly.
Recently, I have been chatting with alot of my sec school frens online & outside.
I so miss the days can. )':
Haha! I rmb i used to can't wait to get out of prcs when I was studying there.
Now, Im out of there alr but so want to go back to prcs.
So irony huh? Haha!
I miss sec 3 dance camp...
I miss the jacket...
I miss the times at central...
I miss the strawberry milk tea...
I miss the bus ride home...
I miss the warm big hands..
I miss the school canteen...
I miss everything that has got to do with.....you.
SIGH. *Shucks* Im looking back again.NOOOOO. ):

Oh, I will be getting back Financial accounting exam result tmr.
*Teeth chattering* God, please let me do well.
I want a Z grade! :D
I know Wan Jun is dreaming again. Lol.

Anyway, according to our social rap, there will be a class gathering coming up. (((((:
MOVIESSSSSS. :DD
Haha! I love my present class too. (:

According to someone, im a life saver. :D
Haha! Does this means I can be a life guard in future?? :P
*GRIN*

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:56 pm

Haha! Another post.
I was chatting with my junior on msn and she asked me to do this survey. LOL.
Since im free, I shall do it to kill time. Hee`s.

Q : Describe the person who ask me to do this survey
A: Cute & Happy-go-lucky. :D

Q: If your bf betrayed you, what would be your reaction?
A: Heartbreaks...

Q : If you had 3 wishes, what will that be?
A: Get into local university, him , good future XD

Q : Did you ever think to yourself and wonder if you're really real?
A:Yeah..I think alot. LOL.

Q : Are you afraid of what lies ahead of you?
A: Abit i guess....at the same time excited.

Q : Would you change yourself for the person you love?
A: It depends..

Q : Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
A: Being loved by someone. (:

Q : How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
A: Forever?? Hahas..Its depends bahx.

Q : If the person you liked is already attached, what would you do?
A: Hmm..bless them. (:

Q : Is there anything that made you unhappy these days?
A: Yupp...these months to be exact. Lol.

Q : Do you get butterflies in your stomach whenever you're around the guy/girl you like?
A: Sometimes yea...

Q : Have you ever not been able to get someone out of your head?
A: Yes. Now! ):

Q : Who are currently most important people to you?
A: Family & friends. Maybe..him also.

Q : Have you ever wanted someone but you knew you couldn't?
A: Yes.

Q : What's the ideal perfect relationship to you?
A: Enough Trust..& be honest to each other.

Q : Are you happy with your life?
A: Erm..alright bahx..

Q : Would you give all in a relationship?
A: Yupp.

Q : If you fall in love with 2 persons simultaneously, who would you pick?the lousiest one?OR the better one?
A: Hmm..I will choose the one who I love more & also love me more. (:

Q : What type of friends do you like?
A: Friends whom I can confide in & caring friends. :D

Q : Do you often wish there was something you could change?
A: Yupp. I wish to go back to sec3 & 4 days..and my previous relationship )':

Q : What do you notice when you first meet a guy?
A: His character & eye contact. Haha!

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

12:15 pm

Yo! Second post of the day.
Im back from mentoring session at TCCC. (:
All mentors are paired up & 1 kid will be allocated to each pair of mentors.
My partner & Helena's partner were not here today, so, I paired up with Helena. :D
The kid that is allocated to us is a lil girl called Eileen.
She is pri 6 this year but look totally not like a pri 6 student.
Haha! She is super small in size.
Eileen bought maths hw to ask me & helena.
Initially, Helena & I were quite scared as we were afraid that we can't solve the prob also. :P
End up, when we saw the lst question, we were like ' PHEW'. Haha!
All the questions were kind of easy, its the explanation part that posed a lil prob to the both of us.
We need to find ways & means to let her understand the questions.
Anyway, eileen is quite obedient. (:
After the academic session, its play time with all the mentees & mentors. :D
The games were okay.
Haha! Headed home after that.

Reflection: Its fun teaching the kids. ((:

On a diff note, cheer up ya, trivia gf. (:
All probs can be solve yea?
Don't think too much & jia you for exams!

A day so memorable...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

5:29 pm

Today is the 21st.
I received a super good news on this used-to-be-a-happy-day.
Haha! I am damn HAPPY now. :DDDDDDDDD
Ok, here comes the news....

"CONGRATULATIONS! :D You've been selected as a member of our sub-comm. A very big welcome to this A&F IG family. "

WHOOHOO!!! :DDD I've passed the interview!
* super BIG GRIN*

Yeah-ness. Im officially a student leader for my course. ((:
I thought I will not get in, as I think I did badly during the interview. Lol.
This has been my wish since the start of my poly life.
I want to be more active & develop the leadership skills in me.
Now, I finally have the chance. (:
Although my initial reason for joining this IG thingy is no longer available, I will still do my best for this IG family.
I live for myself, not for him anymore. (:

On a different note, I guess my life in tp for the coming semester will be super busy yo?
With everything coming to me at one go. VC camp, Mentoring sessions, IG meetings....
Gosh!
Blame myself for joining so many ccas. =x LOL.
Hope I can/I must cope well with studies too. (:

My very first mentoring session ltr at TCCC.
Till then.

Supposedly 23th month...

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

9:10 am

This morning was horrendous. =x
Woke up early morning, & came online to get prepared to chiong into TP website when the time struck 10am to choose the cross disciplinary subject for this semster.
Everybody else were doing the same thing too, thus it was damn lag.
I spent around one hour plus before im done with the choosing. =x
Please let me get into 'introduction to psychology'. (:
I want it badly. :P
Initially, I wanted Analytic geometry & calcalus as my first choice.
This subject is so cool. Haha! Its related to A MATHS! :D
Topics such as differentiation, integration, function etc will be covered. Whoo. :D
However, this subject is not offered in this semester. ): BOOHOO.
Haha! Its okay, psychology is interesting too. (:

I've done a good deed just now. Hee`s.
Wei guang says that he has been trying to log in for 4 hours but still can't log in to choose his CDS. He was damn pissed. Haha!
Being a kind soul, I help him to log in & choose his cds. Hoho.
And guess wat!? I am able to log in to his page, this pisses him even more. :P
Conclusion: My com is better than his. *Laughs* :D

There is mentoring session tmr.
Wonder how it will be like. ((:
I hope more of the kids there are pri 1 to 3 kids. Haha!
:DD

It has been 5 months + 2 days of living without you.
It seems like 5 years to me.
What have I been doing all these while??
Missing you is the answer.
Our supposedly 2 years is coming very soon.
However, it will be just like any other days.
Wan Jun will be able to survive, since I've walked this far.
Loving someone doesn't have to be with him.
As long as he is happy, I will be happy too. (:

Tmr...23th month. )':

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

3:35 pm

Oh, I forgot to mention about my meet up with Qi Rong on wed.
Yeah. Met Qi Rong at whitesands on wed.
We went to Mac to do her csa project.
Saw Malique, Welly & Rashikin! :DDDDD
Had a lil chat with them. (:
Omg, I so miss them. Haha!
Esp my great partner in class, Malique!
Hee`s. I so miss his lame jokes luh & how he always like to shoot me with all those A maths questions. ):
I suddenly miss sec 4 days alot alot alot.
I miss all 4/7-ers.
If only....I can go back.
Lol.

After Qi rong's laptop died on us, we went shopping around whitesands.
Bus-ed home with her after that.

The best class I ever had, FoUr-sEvEn'07. (((:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

6:24 pm

Photos taken at Eunice's Condo. (((:

The mirror reflection of the 3 of us. :D

Another mirror reflection. ((:

On the mentor bonding day. :P

The corridor.

Eunice's condo shot #1. (:

Shot #2.

Our reflection in the lift. :D

Me & chiw foong lao gong. :D

Yeah..Me & Chiw Foong. ((((:

Chiw Foong & Eunice. :D

Me & Chiw Foong. :D

Me & Eunice. ;D

Me & Eunice #2. :D

Nice swimming pool. :P

Today had a great day at Eunice's house. :DD

Early morning, chiong out to take bus 229 to meet Joel.

Pass him something & then again, bus-ed to tamp inter to meet chiw foong.

Together, we took bus 38 to Eunice's house.

We went to do Econs project.

Eunice's house is really beautiful. :D

We quickly finish up the things that we planned to do & its PLAY TIME! Whoops :D

We went around her condo & took lots of photos. Haha!

Typical us. :P

Headed home after that.

Today is a day with mix feelings.

In the morning, i was happy + abit of nervousness. Haha!

After meeting him, I was feeling alright.

Then on the bus, I was abit emotional.

Met up with chiw foong and my mood change for the better.

At first on the bus, i was telling her that I felt kinda sad.

After that, we talked lots of craps & she made me LAUGH. Haha!

Thanks ah. :P

Oh, Im addicted to this song by karen mok, ' Ta bu ai wo'.

My dear chiw foong send me one. :P

Its a very sad song, but its nice.

We played this song using Eunice's laptop while doing Econs project.

Haha! The econs project has become so emo-ish. LOL.

Oh, I just received an email by the mentor ppl.

I've been posted to TCCC for mentoring session. )):

Argh. I prefer Whitesands Pri. ):

Anyway, my first mentoring session is this sat.

Why did you change & didn't inform me to change too?? ):

Im trying very hard already.

Hope my efforts are not wasted.

Anyway, jia you for your exams.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

5:32 pm

Yesterday mentor-bonding session was okay.
Haha!
We were split into groups & played bonding games.
I am Wonderful Wanjun. :P
After that was movie screening session.
I wasn't really interested in the movie, so, my clique & I started our chatting session.
Most of the time, we were talking about our excel project. -.-
Wow, we are so studious man. Haha! :D
We left the school after that, and I headed to tm for dinner with cy & helena.
I missed the dinner with my ex colleagues yesterday due to the bonding thingy. ):
Miss you girls.

Thurs gonna go Eunice's house for Econs project.
:DDD

I am so confuse now as to which CDS to choose. ):
I miss the person who always give me his ideas & views.
Hmm...is there anything in this world that can cure my brain??
I want to look forward. I don't wanna look back anymore.
Haha!

You left me so helpless.
If only, I can reverse time.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:35 am

PHOTOGRAPHY ROCKS!!!!!!! :DDDDDDDDDDDDD
Below are the photos that my group members & I took today using the camera. (((:
ENJOY.

Me concentrating. :D

Me taking the photo of the heart in the sky. ((:

Nice pathway in TP. (:

Beautiful clouds. Theme: FEEL.

Me & Helena splashing water! :D This is taken for the theme: FUN.

LOVE. Its our fingers!!! :D This is taken for the theme: FEEL.

SKY OF LOVE. (: Theme: FEEL. This is QR's fingers! :D Haha! I simply love this shot.

Helena & Me :D

Me, Helena & Qi Rong. :DDD Theme: FUN.

Helena & Me! Haha! Dont be mistaken, we were acting as a couple to fit the theme, FEEL. :D

Helena & me lying down. Theme: FEEL.

SPLASH!!!! FUNNNN!!! :DDDD

CANDID shot of me, Nabila & QR.

REACH FOR THE SKY!!! Heh :P Me, Nabila & Helena.

NICE SHOT. (:

Alright, today basic photography workshop is so PERFECT & FABULOUS. :DDDD

At the start of the workshop, we were listening to the senior's talk on photography + all the skills needed etc.

Its abit complicating at the start.

All the functions of the camera is confusing me. Haha!

The ISO, Aperture, rules of third, exposure, depth of field etc. =x

Hee`s.

After that, we had hands on session whereby we were group into groups of 4 to shoot diff themes.

My group consist of Helena, QR, Nabila & me. (((:

We were given 3 themes- FUN, FIRE, FEEL.

We were supposed to go around TP to take photos of anything that is related to these 3 themes.

Our creativity is important too. (:

The process if taking photos is so damn FUNNNN!

We had lots of fun.

Its definately worth my time & sweat. (:

AND, I realised TP has beautiful places & scenary. Haha!

Also, the sky today is exceptionally BEAUTIFUL. :)

Hahas. After the workshop, Helena, Qr & I went to tm for dinner.

Super tired now.

Took many photos with the school's camera today.

Above are some of the photos took today.

((:

I suddenly thought of you when looking at the boundless sky.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

10:14 pm

Today was a tiring & productive day. (:
Met my comm skills group mates in school at 8.30am.
Damn tired.
We went to interview the vendors in business school canteen.
Now I know inflation really cause alot of problems to people.
The Uncle & Auntie that me & chiw foong interviwed at the Char Siew Rice stall were super friendly.
Can tell that they are really good parents too. Haha! (:
We went on to continue on our survey + backgrounds etc before meeting Ms Teo.
After meeting Ms Teo, we have to redo our survey again. ):
Really damn pek cek at that point of time. All of us were dying man.
Haha!
So, we decided to head down to TM to have our lunch at LJS before continue on the project.
Yeah-ness. :D
Heh. As planned, we went to starbucks after lunch to continue with our project.
Luckily I brought laptop along. (:
Finally, we are done with the project. (: As in, done with those that need to hand up when school reopens.
Chatted alot with chiw foong at starbucks too, while Shi Li was typing out the survey.
Its so fun to chat with her, all the laughters & joy. :D
Haha! Hush Puppies....*LAUGH* :D
Yea, she is right.
The door to the past has closed. Whats impt now is opening the door to the future.

Anyway, im looking forward to tmr photography workshop! (:
Gonna learn a new skill. :D
And, there is a one day camp on 5th of July.
Most probably going. (:
Oh, the chairperson of the photography cca finally replied me.
He had missed out my name. Lol.
This explains why I keep didnt receive any emails from them.
Haha!
Oh, his name is Noel. So...familiar.
Haha! It doesnt really matters now. (;
WanJun is crazy now. After sooooo many projects to do. ><

I just hope to maintain this friendship.

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

5:36 pm

Csa excel project + Econs Project = HEADACHE :(

Have been staring at the computer screen for the whole of today.
From morning 9am to night 9pm. Gosh! =x
All thanks to all the projects. ARGH!
Its killing me man. I think i dream will also dream of PROJECTS.
Lol.

My holidays is so pack with cca thingy + projects. ):
Tmr gotta go school early morning, to do some changes to our comm skills questionare+ mindmap before meeting Ms teo for project consultation.
Sat need to go school for basic photography workshop.
Mon need to go school for TP Mentoring-Mentor bonding day.
Tues booked for Pom project meet up.
Thurs booked for Econs project meet up.
The rest of the days will be book for projects thingy too. ):

My life is so P A T H E T I C .

I have to get use to it.
I will be able to get over it.
Yes, Wanjun is a strong girl. (:

You're the voice I hear inside my head, the reason that I'm singing

8:41 pm

A place filled with endless memories....